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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

33 Weeks and Christmas Break

   I have been behind with my pregnancy posts and also didn't take 30 week pics since we had our professional shoot (I will post those pics once we get the disc). I am writing from Omaha and we have had an amazing Christmas break with family. It has literally been the best Christmas of my life with all of the Lanphier and Schenzel siblings in town. This has been the first time we have gotten to meet our nephew Josiah and have fallen in love with him instantaneously. He is such a happy and content baby and we are obsessed with speaking in unnaturally high voices to see him smile. Our cousins Paul and Lindsey also had their baby boy Ryder the week of Christmas so we are meeting lots of Puffin's cousins.
   Christmas break has been packed with tons of family and friend time. Last night we had an open house shower at my parents house and we were blown away by the generosity of our family and friends. The house was so full that at one point I stood by the back door to get some fresh air. It was a wonderful night even though I wish I could have sat down and chatted individually with each person. The question is how we will get all our cash and prizes back to Cali!





Wednesday, December 7, 2011

30 Weeks






   So here we are at 30 weeks! Hallelujah- I've made it this far... 
Updates:
- I officially can't get comfortable at night and get woken up by kicks (hopefully baby gets his night/day schedule figured out in the next 2 months ;)) 
-We had Paul's dad in town this last weekend and really enjoyed our time with him. He bought us lots of Starbucks- that was a huge perk
-I am asleep almost every night by 10 pm
-I may be nearing the stage where I wear sweat pants every single day...
-We really love you baby and can't wait to meet you! I wonder what you will look like...
- This Saturday we are getting pregnancy pics taken by the same photographer who will be taking baby's newborn pics- Should be fun! Can't wait to see how they turn out :)

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

29 Weeks!









   So normally I pick just a few pics to post, but since I missed my 28 week pics (I blame Thanksgiving) I thought I would just throw them all up here! 29 weeks and 3rd trimester has started!!! I am about to leave for school so here are a few quick pregnancy memories:

-I actually used a Starbucks card I bought for someone else this week because I had such a severe Peppermint White Mocha craving--- terrible I know!
-Paul has told me several times during this pregnancy that I look just how he imagined I would look pregnant, but even cuter... That was an ego boost ;)
-I think baby has gotten as many prophetic words out here as I have and he's not even born yet!
-Puffin still does not have a name.
-Paul's dad is coming in town tomorrow for a visit and we cannot wait!!!! 
-We are super pumped for Christmas in Nebraska- I leave Dec 16th! :)

Friday, November 18, 2011

Beauty

   Last week our revival group pastor Abi spoke to all the girls about beauty and her personal testimony and story of how the Lord took her on a beauty journey. She is such an amazing, strong, stunning, powerful woman and it was such a privilege to learn from her. The following paragraphs are some thoughts and reflections on beauty/body image based on what impacted me from last week.
   Would you ever abuse a friend until she behaved perfectly or looked the way you wanted her to? Would you criticize, punish, and verbally assault her only to turn around and ask her to do a favor for you? We all read this and think: Of course I wouldn't! That sounds terrible! -but the truth is: so many of us do this to our bodies. We love our bodies conditionally and only accept them when we think they are 'perfect'. We are mean to them and overly critical, yet put unrealistic demands of them at the same time. Loving our bodies with no strings attached is so important as a woman because we go through many changes. Puberty, pregnancy, weight fluctuations, and menopause create very unique hormonal adjustments that are part of every woman's life.
   The sad thing is, even people who have 'perfect' figures have flaws that they would like to change. Some of the most insecure women on the planet are those who have taken every measure to preserve and change their looks only to realize later there are still things they don't like about themselves physically. If you cannot love your body unconditionally, you will never find peace. Changing that 'one thing' that bothers you just might be masking the root issue that you do not accept yourself. 
   This is not to say we should never do our hair and make-up, eat whatever we want, and be lazy, but if we love who we are, we will want to care for ourselves. I love to work out (when I'm not pregnant) and this is because I know I am worth it and it blesses my physical health. I also enjoy when I am able to get my nails done or a facial, but in this season of life being in ministry school does not financially allow me to indulge. That's ok though! I still feel beautiful  because I've already made up my mind to treat myself as such! Do you see the difference?- I do not take care of myself because I think it will make me beautiful. I take care of myself because I see myself as beautiful and want to steward my beauty.
   Abi (my Bethel pastor)also shared about body reconciliation. This is totally new to me, but has to do with actually speaking to our bodies, being in touch with what they need, and repenting for not being a good friend to ourself. I have began to declare love over my body (speaking to parts by name) and blessing it. Gratefulness is key. We should be the safest place for ourselves. We should be such a refuge from the onslaught of media images that define what the perfect body should look like. I am an advocate for my own body and when I love myself I empower those around me to more fully embrace who they are.
   One thing Abi does with people she counsels is has them go through magazines and look for women who have similar features to what they don't like about themselves (i.e. big hips, small breasts, big breasts, short, tall- whatever they are struggling with) that they find beautiful. They cut out these pictures as an exercise in redefining what beauty is. 
   I personally was so impacted by they idea of blessing our bodies and partnering with them. Being pregnant, I am experiencing a ton of physical changes that I would have thought would be really difficult for me since I have been blessed with being naturally slender. But I have committed to partnering with myself during this time and telling my body, "you go ahead and do what you need to do to sustain life... If you need to gain 30 lbs during this pregnancy I bless you, if you need to gain more, I'm still going to accept you." It is actually quite revolutionary because I find myself just so grateful I have a healthy body and the even more revolutionary outcome is I can see my body responding. I have struggled since I was 14 with acne, but I have been speaking life and acceptance to my skin and it has actually cleared up some! It's still not perfect, but that isn't even the goal because I no longer expect perfection out of myself.
   So friends, I challenge you to love who you were made to be. I even dare you to try speaking life and acceptance to your body out loud and watch how your perspective and attitude changes. You may even reap some physical blessings that come from not punishing yourself. Psalm 139 tells us how we are fearfully and wonderfully made and guess what?! I believe what God says about me :) MY BODY ROCKS- and so does yours! 
   

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

27 Weeks- 2nd Tri Ending

Crazy! 28 weeks (next Wednesday is the start of my 3rd trimester). Here are this weeks pics as I say good-bye to 2nd trimester.... bittersweet...









Thursday, November 10, 2011

26 Weeks

   Remember this? this was the first photobooth pic I took since knowing I was pregnant...
Wowza: Here is the difference at 26 weeks: Growing so fast! and moving lots too...




   I hear this is the best stage of pregnancy because morning sickness is gone and you're not so large yet that it's super uncomfortable. To me, my stomach is uncomfortable because I can't sleep on it and have to lay on my side. I also wake up at least 2 times a night now to go to the bathroom- oh joy... 
   I feel like my appetite is a little more back to normal... I crave strawberries! I go through a carton in like 2.5 days and get very testy if Paul asks me to share a berry with him ;)
   Currently, school is going well. We love it and are just trying to sort through what we will do once baby arrives in February. With all the family coming to visit I may not be up to class and homework. At least I have a few more months of soaking up all the amazing teaching.
   One thing that is interesting about pregnancy is the crazy dreams you get: for instance, last night I dreamed that I was walking around holding Puffin who was like 3 months old. I couldn't remember giving birth to him and didn't feel especially bonded to him. Flash to next scene in the dream and Puffin is 8 years old and bi-racial. I couldn't remember him growing up and I couldn't remember why he wasn't white... strange huh? These pregnancy hormones have a mind of their own! :))

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

25 Weeks and active!

Feeling great! Even been walking on the treadmill (thus the workout clothes in this week's pics) and reading a great labor/delivery book I got from the Bethel bookstore :) Thank goodness for photobooth!
Mercy.


He loves it in there..

Wondering if it is normal to have bb poking out this early...



Vermont/Boston 2011

Pics of our Vermont/Boston trip of 2011. We love visiting the east coast to run Wellness Clinics!!! Fun working vacation :)
At our favorite restaurant "Flatbreads" in Burlington, VT.

We don't have DD in NE or Cali :( prob a good thing...

Driving to Von Trap family lodge in VT.

Beautiful fall!



hmmm? foreshadowing of how I will feel come Feb??

Von Trap family lodge

Pauly goes to Harvard!

Visiting Annie's bf Nick at Harvard!

Harvard library (and a preggo couple)
Closer look: yep! baby is there :)

Ahh! the smell of knowledge!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

24 Weeks :)

   Today was my 24 week check-up and things are going well. Besides feeling like I have swallowed a melon I am feeling good and relieved to be done with pregnancy sickness. California weather is perfect right now! It is a great time to be pregnant- not too hot (it has been in the 70's all week).
   I feel like I should take this opportunity to share with the world a pregnancy secret. My doctor informed me there is a 'danger zone' (which I am officially in) that is a preggo girl's worst nightmare. He said the Halloween candy, Thanksgiving feasts, and Christmas cookies are none-too-forgiving to pregnancy poundage. Evidentally, the hormones in my body will be hoarding calories to make a nice comfy environment for little Puffin and I will blow up like a balloon. Now seriously, I have been blessed to never have had a weight struggle, but even I am a little concerned. I believe it goes back to my first appointment when Dr. S told me that it wasn't necessary for me to gain more than 25 lbs.-  let me tell you I have had a lot of pregnant friends, relatives, and celebrities who gained well over 25 lbs. People have laughed in my face when I tell them this is my Dr's goal weight for me... As a matter of fact, I'm pretty sure I read in "People" magazine that some famous Victoria's Secret runway model gained like 70 lbs during her 1st baby.  All that to say, Dr. S has brought up weight at every appointment and it's just kinda funny at this point. I wonder what he will do if I come home from Christmas break in Omaha tipping the scales? He would probably know I was yet another sad victim of the pregnancy 'danger zone.' Whatev- boy Dr's don't get to be condescending since they themselves are never pregnant.
   So it was with the yellow tape of 'danger zone' etched into my mind I decided today would be a good day to hit the gym (after a hiatus of several months). You see, I don't have any plans to resist the Thanksgiving feasts and the Christmas baking my mom does- so the gym seemed like the most logical choice. I am happy to report it was a good night back. It was such a relief to power walk on the treadmill without incident. I may or may not have had to sprint to the gym bathroom and projectile vomit the last time I attempted a workout. Yes, several months ago this happened to me and I didn't even appear pregnant yet which means less understanding and sympathy. Yipes! No wonder it's been so long since my last visit...
  Also, another pregnancy issue has been shooting lower back/pelvic pain that had me waking up Paul last week because I thought my hips were breaking (actually my exact words were "Paul! Wake up! I think I'm dying!"). I seriously was pacing the hotel room (we were in Vermont) and doing deep breathing as if I was in labor. The front desk was nice enough to send the security guard to my room with some pain reliever (Paul was already fast asleep in the 2 minutes it took the guard to deliver the drugs- which is probably because I've overused the phrase "I think I'm dying" and it has lost its effectiveness with him). Luckily, I resisted calling my mom to tell her goodbye because it turns out it's just normal hip pain caused by pregnancy hormones to widen your hips- GREAT- and I'm only half-way done. Good news is that my pelvis has a much lower chance of cracking when compared with my ribs which can actually be broken by aggressive baby kicking. Who would have known?!?!? Can you imagine sustaining a cracked rib due to your baby!?! I hope that this has not caused anyone great pregnancy fear... I am just graciously bringing my readers along for the journey ;)
   So here is 24 weeks :) Baby is growing so fast and kicks me all the time (but not to the point of having a broken rib)!





Friday, October 7, 2011

21 Weeks!

   So I'm a day late, but yesterday I hit the 21 week mark. This was the week where I felt like I really popped out! You will notice in the pics I am still wearing my pre-pregnancy pants, but can't fasten the button :). 
   I have still been feeling much better and have been craving corn dogs, grilled cheese, and frozen pizza. The old me would be horrified, but I try and get in my fruits and veggies. Puffin (baby's nickname) is very active and I feel him moving everyday. It sort of is like there is a giant goldfish swimming around in my stomach...
   Ministry school continues to be amazing (even though I'm worn out by the end of the week!). Paul and I can't believe that it's only been one month and we know our lives are completely changed forever. We have never been so stretched financially, yet at the same time felt so rich spiritually. It's well worth the sacrifice. Paul got a second job and is busy from about 7 am to 8 pm. He is such a hard worker and I'm grateful to just focus on school for the time being.
   This week they also opened up missions trip sign ups. There are 60 trips all over the world and I really encouraged Paul to sign up since he has never been on a missions trip before- plus it is an amazing opportunity to take a trip overseas with Bethel! I will have had baby just a month before they leave for the trip so I am now accepting applications for someone to come keep baby and I company ;). Turner (my bro who is living with us) will also be out of the country on a trip...
   Below are my 21 (and 1 day) week pics! Over half way there!
check out the difference a few posts down! there is a big difference between 19 and 21 weeks!